My ex-girlfriend sugested that I start this blog. Ex-girlfriend, now there is a world of hurt. I must admit that it really hurts when the one you love tells you that you can not give them what they want. But since I love her and respect her, what is a man to do? Simple, run. I find that there is a kind of clarity that one achieves when one's body is gasping for oxygen. It is something akin to what the American Indians experience when they deprive their bodies of sustanance. And what dit I see? The future. For the first time in my life I am free. I owe nothing to anybody, I am not responsible to anyone, I am not responsible for anyone and I am not beholden to anyone. I can choose to make my life great, or flush it down the toilet, although I would prefer the former :-). The future is now before me, and if I can find the courage to make the decisions I will face every day, and take responsibility for those decisions, I think the future holds great rewards.